Today, after a long time I am feeling low.
It's a feeling , I used to feel earlier.
I feel a bit perplexed, about what to do, so I went outside to clear my head.
My dilemma is that, should I be just aware of my thoughts through out the day, or be completely present during detain times of the day, like while reading, writing, eating or just speaking to someone.
My fear is that if I be present, or rather force my mind to be in the present moment, would be using force. But according to whatever, I have learnt, the mind doesn't yield to force. So I started thinking about being aware of my breath. But again, that is not something that I can do through out the day.

So suddenly it came to me..the answer is my fear.I fear that I may not successful at being enlightened, if I am present at certain points of time during the day.

So , I have to overcome this fear now, like so many of my hidden fears.
That's the solution